Happy Birthday to me

This year, I got a lot of SMS wishing me happy birthday. I am so glad. Thanks for all my dear friends.

But just missing yours.

I believe yours should come earlier. Maybe at twelve sth the midnight of 19th as you seldom sleep early, but it didn't come.

Finally Rebecca is the first one to count down for me and wish me happy birthday via SMS, MSN and phone. Thanks my dear, even though you keep reminding me I am getting older.

Then I kept waiting while chatting with my friedn and give it up till 2am.

Early morning of 19th, I woke up and check my mobile, I still can't find your SMS, but some of my friends'. I am still glad, a great comfort for me.

I can't wait anymore and sent you a SMS to remind you the date of today at 12 noon.

2 hours later, I got your reply finally, just a simply wishing, "生日快樂"

I falled down to a valley right after it, a really really deep valley.

I believe you won't send me SMS if I didn't remind you.
I am expecting there's sth more in your reply, like more words, much fun....

I miss those days you SMS me during holidays and your wishing SMS on Jan 1st this year.
I miss you as well.

I know sth happened, and you changed your attitude to me.
I felt I have lost sth, but did I ?

Friends told me I think too much, too unrealistics.
I am just a "easy-going" girl to you. You can hit on me whenever you like. But it's not love, neither like. It's an issue of "Convenience"
Friends told me I shouldn't let you to do this, as I am just hurting myself, and get nth good to my work.

I am just so childish to neglect all these advice and go ahread to push myself into a fire.

FInally, I am hurt now.