HIM

I haven't seen him for a month I think.
I am expecting for this party tonite a lot, coz I am gonna see him again.

I told myself nth is gonna happen tonite.
Even though I miss him, I like him, I care him, I am expecting sth happen even though no long relationship to be followed. I just still wanna see him.

I have no idea why I keep sticking to him, even my fds told me I should stop, I just can't stop everytime I see him.

I am much better these days, but he's still my 1st choice.

I know I should fins someone who care me more , love me more, but it's not what one can control, just like love, I can't control myself to think about him, to get close to him.